Thursday, December 20, 2012
An Atheist Christmas
Sunday, October 7, 2012
An explanation
Three years ago I started college at BYU-Idaho. I was ridiculously excited--I began counting down the days from the moment I received my acceptance letter. A lot has happened since then. I have been counting down the days to graduation since I had more than 500 days left. Some of you reading this blog may have known me before I started school. Others of you may have met me during my time there. Naturally, a lot has changed in that time. I don't think anyone goes away to college or moves away from home without changing somewhat, and I'm no exception. I've learned to think in ways that I'm not used to thinking. I've been exposed to new ideas and met new people. Most of all, I've learned what it means to think for myself. Those of you who know me well know that I feel compelled to question anything and everything. Sometimes I do it purely to enjoy a good debate, and sometimes I'm being serious. I'm not always the most tactful person when it comes to debate, I'm afraid, but I think that I've learned how to be tactful when it is necessary. At least, I try to be tactful when it is necessary. That is what I am trying to do here.
During my first year of college, I spent a lot of time reading, praying, and thinking, and after what I can only describe as the most difficult time in my life, I came to the conclusion that I cannot muster any sort of belief in any sort of deity. I assure you, this is not a decision that I made lightly. The day when I first allowed myself to face my doubt was the most frightening of my life. The day when I finally let go of my futile search for rational reasons to believe in the supernatural was one of the most freeing. I'll try not to bore you or offend you with excessive details as to the reasons behind my decision. But at the very least I will try to help some of you understand, if I can, that I gave my decision the time and consideration that it deserved.
In the fall of 2009, sometime in October, I began having serious doubts about the truth of the LDS church. I'd put a lot of issues on the shelf over the years, and when I mustered the courage to face them, I found a lot more than I bargained for. Eventually, it came to a head. Late one night in my dorm at BYU-I, I realized that I couldn't believe in the church any longer. It was frightening, and over the next several months I went through a very difficult but very rewarding period of questioning and exploration. I spent a lot of time praying during this time. I spent many hours late at night locked in the bathroom, praying and crying and wishing for an answer. I did everything I was supposed to, everything that I had been taught that would bring answers. I waited for an answer, for some sort of resolution, some reason to believe. It never came.
The last time I prayed, really prayed, is one of my clearest memories. It was about two years ago now. I had been struggling for months with my doubt. I was emotionally and intellectually ripped apart and I needed to find some measure of closure. I couldn't do it anymore. I walked up the hill to the Rexburg temple and sat on the grass for several hours. I watched the sun go down and the stars come out. I prayed, cried, and thought for all of that time. I don't know what I was expecting, to be honest. But whatever I was expecting, nothing happened. After a few hours went by I looked up at the sky and thought, I've done everything I can. I've prayed. I've read. I've thought. I've waited. I have to let this go. If I'm going to be honest, then I have to admit that I do not and cannot believe. And that's okay.
I'm painfully aware that most, if not all, of you will find reasons to judge me and to rationalize my experiences. But in the end, they are mine, and I have found my peace. I cannot describe how wonderful it is to be free of constant cognotive dissonance. I don't expect anyone to agree with me or my decisions, and frankly everyone is free to make of them what they will. My purpose in writing this blog post is not to justify myself. It's just that I've spent a very long time pretending to be something that I am not and to believe things that I do not, and I'm tired of pretending. This is who I am. I am finally being honest with others as well as myself.
I am a graduate of BYU-Idaho, and I am an atheist.
Wednesday, September 5, 2012
Thoughts on Failure
I failed a class in college. Accounting 333: Advanced Spreadsheet Applications. It was basically a class on how to program for Excel in Microsoft VBA. Funnily enough, I liked the class. I liked programming. I failed for a lot of reasons. The biggest one was probably my own laziness--I took the class during my second-to-last semester and was getting burned out. I didn't work as hard or as effectively as I did for my first six semesters. I had other issues as well--I was coming out of a rather nasty bout of depression (I got on meds about a month or so into the semester). Not only was I sick of school in general, I hated my school.
Even so, failing a class was a heavy blow for me. I was used to As with the occasional B. Seriously, the worst grade I'd ever gotten in my life was a B. You can imagine the shock. It was a hit to the ego as well as the GPA. I retook the class the next semester (and passed, thank the FSM). But I did learn some things.
First, I learned that there are some things in life that I do have to put lots of time into. Learning has come pretty easily to me most of my life, and I was accustomed to being able to BS an A or a B if I didn't like the subject matter. I wasn't able to do that with Accounting 333. I had to work at it.
Second, I learned that failing doesn't make you a failure. The thing that failing does do is show the kind of person you are by your reaction to it. What did I learn about myself? I learned that I'm a perfectionist. ("This F is a black mark on my LIFE!" ) I learned that I needed to quit being a lazy bum. And I learned that things that you think are the end of the world, really aren't the end of the world. Really. Most of the time.
Thirdly, I learned that I need to apply the generosity I give others to myself as well. I've had friends and roommates who failed classes, and I always told them, "that sucks. It's okay though. Sometimes it takes a couple tries to get something right; it doesn't mean you're dumb. Just try again." But I didn't apply that to myself. That was actually pretty arrogant of me. What, other people might need more time to learn things, but I don't? Shut up, former self. You're full of it.
Finally, I learned that I needed to stop basing so much of my self-worth on my accomplishments. It was something I did subconsciously, and it was an easy thing to do because a lot of stuff came easily to me. But it doesn't say much about me if I'm good at things that come easily to me, does it?
In the end, failing Accounting 333 was a good thing for me. I learned some things that I might not have, had I passed the class with flying colors. Humility is a hard lesson to learn, and I still suck at it sometimes, but it's important.
Monday, August 27, 2012
Update: Life
Highlights: I graduated from BYU-Idaho last month. That was SUPER exciting. I also got engaged. It's officially announced as of last week. This is also SUPER exciting. I'm looking for a job. This is not so exciting. I've started going to the gym. This is moderately exciting. I've also come out of the closet as an atheist. This has also been exciting, although perhaps not as fun.
Recent topics of thought: Politics. Obviously. I'll keep it brief, but let's just say I'm not terribly impressed with Paul Ryan or the recent Todd Akin scandal. Seems like these things just keep on coming.
Reading. My post-graduation reading list consists primarily of fiction, because I'm pretty much intellectually worn out on nonfiction. I'll be reading George R.R. Martin's A Song of Ice and Fire Series and Brandon Sanderson's Mistborn trilogy for starters. After that maybe I'll poke my head into some other genres.
Wedding. Wedding planning is a monster. Seriously, why is everything so expensive? I seriously want to elope.
That'll do for now. I'll probably update again sometime soon, when I think of something interesting to say.
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Blue Lips and Overmen: Regina Spektor and the Philosophy of Friedrich Nietzsche
One example of this
existential character is Spektor's piece entitled “Man of a
Thousand Faces.” The song starts off describing a very small moment
of the man's experience—he is sitting at a table, eating a lump of
sugar, and looking at the moon.
This
particular piece seems to imply a rejection of religion, in the
character of Friedrich Nietzsche's assertion that “God is dead.”2
The man's meditation takes him to a place where religion cannot
reach. Nietzsche asserts that religion is limiting, and that it keeps
people from reaching their true potential. In Thus
Spake Zarathustra, he
writes of priests: “Pretty intellects and comprehensive souls
these herdsmen had: but my brethren, what small territories hitherto
have been even the most comprehensive souls!”3
For Nietzsche, religion prescribes the territory of the soul. It
limits it. And in Spektor's piece The
Man of a Thousand Faces,
the unnamed man has released himself from these bonds and killed God.
He goes to a place “where no religion has found a path to, or a
likeness.” For Nietzsche, God is dead because he is no longer
relevant to the way people structure their lives. The man of a
thousand faces does not find religion relevant to his quiet
ascension. He has, in the existentialist sense, realized
himself and become an Overman—one who is himself, who is his own.
An Overman, Bernd Magnus says, is “the nonspecific
representation, the undetermined embodiment if you will, of a certain
attitude toward life and the world—the attitude which finds them
worthy of infinite
repetition.”4
To be an Overman is to fully realize yourself in such a way that you
would want to live your life all over again without alteration.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Passion and Obligation
And that's the difference. When you are passionate about something, it's not hard to get yourself to do it. But I find that when I don't care about something, I can't get myself to do it--at least not very easily. I have to talk myself into it, bribe myself (if I do this one assignment, then after I finish I'll do Constitutional Law homework!), and trick myself into doing it. But when I'm passionate about the work, even though it's work, the work is its own reward. I want to do it. I enjoy the challenge and the intellectual stimulation of it.
That's all well and good. But one of the things I'm trying to teach myself is how to become passionate about things that aren't particularly thrilling to me at first blush. For example, this semester I am taking a senior seminar course on what amounts to economic history in the 18th and 19th centuries. That's not exactly my favorite field of history. I like intellectual history, and observing how human thought and ideas affect the course of human events. The development of the Britain's industries and transportation infrastructure simply doesn't sing to me in the way that, say, Renaissance humanism does. So, in internet terms--wat do?
The answer, for me at least, seems to be that I need to find connections between what I have to do and what I love to do. When I do everything that I do out of a sense of obligation, I eventually become unhappy, bored, and stressed. I procrastinate, wear myself out by cramming at the last minute, and then don't retain anything. I need to find a way to become passionate about the things that I have to do anyway. So I have to learn about the development of industrial infrastructure in the 18th and 19th century. How does that development affect the way people view themselves and their surroundings? How do people react to these changes? And how did those reactions, in turn, shape the course of the Industrial Revolution?
I find that when I learn this way, I retain things much better. There are two reasons for this, I think. Firstly, and most obviously, it's a lot easier to remember something if you actually care about it. Secondly, learning through connections is a lot easier than learning through straight memorization. For example, in my constitutional law class last semester, I had to memorize relevant Supreme Court cases and their precedents, significance, and relevant details. That's a lot to memorize, and I did have to do some of it by rote--I made flashcards and drilled them. But more importantly, I also made connections. Most people know about Brown v. Board of Education, for example. Why? Probably because they're familiar with the stories of the civil rights movement, both before and after that landmark case. Brown v. Board is part of a larger network of concepts that includes Rosa Parks, Martin Luther King, Jr., freedom riders, bus boycotts, and "I Have a Dream." All these things appeal to the emotions as well as the mind. We care about civil rights and racial equality. Things weren't always that way, of course--that's why the civil rights movement existed in the first place. And we're certainly not a post-racial society yet. But most people recognize that people have equal rights regardless of race, and the idea that a fellow human being might be forced to go to a lower-quality school (for example) because of something as irrelevant as the color of their skin is repugnant to us. So we tie the events of the civil rights movement together in an interconnected set of stories--the mention of one aspect of civil rights triggers a whole set of associations. This is a lot more meaningful than just memorizing, "Brown v. Board, 1954, mandated racial integration in public schools." Learning by association is much more effective than learning by memorization.
I notice this especially when I do essay exams. If I'm taking the exam on something that I've mainly learned through rote memorization, I don't do as well. I rattle off facts without much meaning behind them. But when I've learned through associations, I'm able to make sense of the big picture and its significance, and I do much better because I don't just know the facts--I know why they're important. And besides, that's a much more fun way to learn.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
The Courage to Think: term paper for History 308, Renaissance and Reformation
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Chivalry
Me: "Good."
Over the last semester, I have gotten quite adept at pissing people off. Specifically, I've offended several people by expressing my distaste for the concept of chivalry. I suppose the fact that I think that way could be construed to mean that I'm rude or something like that. To be honest, I'm not going to treat anyone badly because they do things that are considered "chivalrous." I'm not going to glare at a guy for opening the door for me; I know as well as anyone that he's only trying to be nice. I don't go through life trying to pick fights. I take things in the spirit that they're meant.
But.
There's just something about the whole concept of chivalry that really makes me uncomfortable. And that seems difficult for a lot of the people that I've pissed off to understand. I can see why; on the surface, chivalry is guys being nice to girls. It's holding the door for her, carrying her stuff, standing when she walks in the room (*shudder*). I mean, who can complain about men treating women with respect, right? The fact that I find the concept annoying must mean that I'm some kind of horrible, man-hating witch, right? Not exactly. I like men. A lot, actually. I am not unreasonable or intentionally mean.
Here is why chivalry bothers me. I think that it puts men and women on unequal footing, and there are several dimensions to this. First, it puts women on pedestals. I have a serious problem with that. Gloria Steinem, the infamous feminist, said that "a pedestal is as much a prison as any other small, confined place." Putting women on pedestals and glorifying them as angels worthy of some kind of worship/veneration/special treatment puts them into little boxes. But we're not angels. We're human beings. The "women are so much better then us rude, uncultured men" rhetoric dehumanizes us, and ironically I think that it's condescending. It's a two-dimensional view of both men and women. People are so much more complex than that, and it is a disservice to both genders to behave as if one is pure and angelic while the other is base, clueless and crude. It's a disturbing mix of misogyny and misandry. Can we please just be people, warts and all?
Secondly, I think that chivalrous conventions draw unwarranted attention to gender. Gender is very relevant, it is very important, and there are a lot of differences between men and women. I'm not arguing that. But when you look at another human being, you should see more than just their race or age--or gender. Certainly those things are important and they are important parts of what make up a person, but the important thing is the person. When I walk into a room, I want people to go "Oh, it's Aubrie" not "Oh, it's a woman, better stand up/hold the door."
Thirdly, I believe that chivalry puts men and women on unequal footing. When a man opens the door for me, naturally I say thank you. But, depending on the situation, I sometimes feel manipulated. Not always. I open the door for people all the time, both men and women. And I can usually tell from people's body language whether someone's holding the door just to be polite or because I'm a woman. If I'm right behind them, or they get to the door first, then it's clearly common courtesy. But if I'm ten feet behind and some guy holds the door, it's annoying. If I'm walking with a guy and he has to reach around me specifically to hold the door instead of just letting me walk through and hold it open behind me like a normal person, it feels condescending to me--even though I know it's not meant that way. I feel a strange and uncomfortable sense of obligation.
I honestly think that chivalry can be used in a way that is really manipulative, by both men and women. I remember a Young Women activity where we had a discussion with the missionaries about dating conventions. The missionaries made us promise never to open doors for ourselves on dates, even if it meant sitting in the car for five minutes until the guy realized his grave error and came back to get us. I mean, seriously. How messed up is that? What kind of message is that supposed to send? "I can't open a doggone door, so you need to do it for me?" That's obviously not true. "You are a lesser human being and I am a divine angel, and so you need to grovel for me?" That's misandry, which I have just as much of a problem with as misogyny. And I do find it disturbing that a couple twenty-odd-year-old men would tell a group of girls not to open doors for themselves, to insist that men do it for them. I think that brings a power dynamic into a relationship that is highly distasteful.
Most of all, why? Why is chivalry something that we do? Is it just because it's a cultural convention? That doesn't make it worth preserving--segregation and the "women belong at home" paradigm were cultural conventions as well. I don't think anyone's going to argue that fully grown women actually need to be taken care of. So what's the point? I don't understand women who claim to want equality, and then complain if a guy doesn't open the door or give up his seat for her. That's what equality is, woman! It's not getting or giving special treatment on the basis of something as silly and undeserved as gender.
Being treated like a princess is nice, I'll admit. But it always leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I prefer to interact with men--with everyone, really--as equals. Obviously I want to be treated with respect, but "chivalry" as a counterfeit version of respect strikes me as incredibly phony. I don't want to be "respected" for being female. I want to be respected for me--for my intelligence, for my sense of humor, for my work ethic, and most of all for simply being another human being. There are so many other things that mean so much more to me than empty and archaic gestures meant to make up for gender inequalities that, for the most part, no longer exist. Look at my face when I'm talking to you. Take the things I say seriously. Get to know me for who I am, and not just as a two-dimensional version of womanhood that you picked up from our culture. Criticize my ideas when you don't like them. Argue with me. Respect my status as an adult with her own ideas, autonomy, faults, and mistakes.
A final word. My real problem with chivalry as "being nice" boils down to the fact that it's a one-way street in my view; men treating women nice. I just think that everybody should be nice to everybody else. When it comes to relationships, I don't want a man to "protect" me. I do want him to have my back, so to speak, and I will have his back as well. Allow me to give an example from one of my favorite movies, Ever After. The movie starts out with Prince Henry being chivalrous--"how dare you raise your voice to a lady?" (When Danielle obviously has no problem with being shouted at, or with shouting back--unbeknownst to Henry, she's already given him an earful and several bruises.) But by the end, Henry's figured out that Danielle doesn't need protecting. She's perfectly capable of slicing her would-be rapist from navel to nose, while her feet are shackled no less. He starts out assuming that she's like all the other women at court, expecting to be protected and sheltered. By the end they have a much healthier relationship because he has learned to see her not as a "lady," but simply as Danielle. He's got her back, you can bet on it. And she has his back too--she's the one who got him out of the mess with the gypsies. It's not about chivalry anymore, about the prince and his fair lady. It's Henry and Danielle. That's equality. That's a healthy relationship, without all this silly baggage about "you're a woman and so I have to treat you differently than I would treat other human beings."
I want to be valued for who I am, not for the fact that I have a uterus.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Troy in the Bronze Age
This was my final paper for my History 487: Senior Colloquium class last winter semester. I pretty much worked my brains out on it. :)
Perhaps one of the most well-known and controversial sites in the history of archeology is that of Troy. It is commonly accepted to have been located at a hill now called Hisarlik. The site is located in northwestern Turkey, about four miles from the base of the Hellespont. It was probably closer to the sea in the Bronze Age, but the area has since become silted up.1
The site's first excavator, Heinrich Schliemann, was not motivated by scholarship, but romance. He claimed to have been inspired at a young age to find the historical location of Homer's Troy, but his recklessly eager excavations at the hill of Hisarlik considerably damaged the site. Several excavation campaigns have taken place since Schliemann's excavations in 1871-73 and 1878-9: Wilhelm Dörpfeld (1893-4), Carl Blegen (1832-8), and, most recently, Manfred Korfmann (1988-2003). The city is composed of nine layers, ranging in date from Troy I, starting around 2900 BC, to Troy IX, which ended around AD 550 during the time of the Romans. Schliemann's goal in excavating Hisarlik was to find the Troy of Homer, and he assumed that the city he was looking for would be at the bottom of the hill, near the bedrock. He dug an enormous trench through the center of the hill, essentially destroying much of the upper layers, until he found treasure in Troy II that he declared was the “Treasure of Priam.” Unfortunately for Schliemann, Troy II was over a thousand years too early to be Homer's Troy. The Troy of the Trojan War (if such a war did actually take place) is most likely to have been either Troy VI (c. 1700-1250 BC) or Troy VIIa. Troy VIIa could really be considered part of Troy VI, as there is no major cultural alteration between the end of Troy VI and Troy VIIa, although the quality of Troy VIIa is considerably less than that of Troy VI.2
The main question here is, what was the situation of Troy relative to other civilizations in Anatolia and the Aegean in the Late Bronze Age? Troy has traditionally been viewed through a Greek lens because of its association with Homer's Iliad. However, recent excavations and scholarship have shown that Troy may have had a stronger connection with the Anatolian world, particularly the Hittites, than it did with the Mycenaeans. Because of the historical preoccupation with Troy and its relationship with Homer's Iliad, no discussion of the site can avoid at least some mention of Homer, and scholarly views on Troy and its situation in the Bronze Age are inevitably shaped by Homer's description. The city that Homer describes is a great power, a “shining city,” and rich in treasure. Schliemann's excavations at Troy were driven by this idea of Troy as a great city. He was convinced that Homer's description was of reality, and this presupposition ultimately led him to plow straight through the layers of Hisarlik that actually dated to the Late Bronze Age and declare that Troy II was the great city of Priam. Although Schliemann's mistake has since been rectified, many scholars find themselves subject to a presupposition that the civilization at Hisarlik simply must have been a significant and powerful Bronze Age city. Until recently, this has been difficult to argue for because the site of Troy was simply too small to be any kind of great power. However, the most recent excavation campaign at the site of Hisarlik led by Manfred Korfmann has unearthed evidence that was Troy much larger than had been originally thought.
In 1996 Korfmann discovered a lower city outside the main citadel of Troy VI. According to Korfmann's estimate, this lower city was around 200,000 square meters—ten times larger than previously thought.3 This discovery, if real, eliminated the difficulty that the small size of Hisarlik had previously posed, making it more plausible that Troy was a significant city in the Late Bronze Age. Korfmann believed that Troy was an important Bronze Age trading center. Its strategic location allowed it to control trade up and down the Hellespont, and it had sea trade connections in the Aegean and Black Sea regions.4 Korfmann even went so far as to say that troy was a “pivotal city” in northwestern Anatolia.5 He asserted that Troy lay at the center of a vast trading network solidified by intermarriage, and that the members of this trading might easily have come together to form the coalition of allies that Homer describes in the Iliad.6
Korfmann's view of Troy as a trading hub, however, has come under criticism for being overly optimistic, even fantastic, because of lack of evidence. Among the sharpest of these critics are Dieter Hertel and Frank Kolb.7 Hertel and Kolb accuse Korfmann of altering maps of Late Bronze Age trade routes in spite of any evidence for doing so, and of stretching the limits of the existing evidence in order to support his thesis.8 They point out that no Mycenaean pottery has ever been found in the Black Sea region of Anatolia, which it certainly would have been if Troy had really been a trading hub between the Aegean and the Black Sea.9 Further, Hertel and Kolb argue that Korfmann's estimate of a population of 10,000 for Troy is extravagant. If Troy was really that big, then it would have been larger even than the Hittite capital Hattuşa, which was only 3000-6000 large. By comparison, the geographical size of Hattuşa was 180 hectares, and the size of Korfmann's Troy is only 11 hectares.10
In addition, Hertel and Kolb point out that the citadel at Troy does not have the same structure as Mycenaean palatial estates; that is, it does not have a central building surrounded by subordinate buildings, nor does it have the ordered and elaborate structure that is common to important centers of civilization.11 This lack of palatial organization implies that Troy was not a great center of trade, as Korfmann suggested, but a much smaller and less significant settlement. 12
As the case stands, archaeological evidence is never as conclusive as one might like it to be. Korfmann certainly was overeager in his assessment of Troy's importance in the Late Bronze Age; he, like many other scholars and archaeologists, appears to have fallen into the trap of seeing what one wants to see at Troy, simply because of its traditional importance as the site of fabled Ilion and as a major Anatolian archaeological site. While the civilization that existed at Hisarlik did likely have connections with other civilizations, the characterization of Troy as a “trading hub” is likely an exaggeration. There is simply not enough evidence to warrant such an assertion, and the city of Troy itself is not structured like a palatial trading center.
One of the main questions about Troy concerns its cultural relationship with the other peoples in Anatolia and the Aegean. In the Iliad, Homer portrays the Trojans as essentially Greek—speaking the same language, worshiping the same gods, and observing the same cultural mores. But how accurate is this? Troy, after all, is not situated in Greece, but in Anatolia at the base of the Hellespont. Was Troy really a Greek city, or was it Anatolian?
One important point of comparison between cultures is fortification styles. The fortifications of Troy VI are in a completely different style from that of the previous layers, which suggests the beginning of an entirely new cultural era at Troy.13 The Trojan fortifications in this era are much stouter and more advanced than those of the previous inhabitants. The fortification walls of Troy are also distinctly different from typical Mycenaean walls. The gently sloping walls of Troy are made of huge blocks of stone that later peoples were convinced could only have been moved by the supernatural Cyclopes prompted the use of the name the name “Cyclopean” to describe the walls. However, the Cyclopean masonry of Troy differs from that at Mycenaean sites. Mycenaean Cyclopean masonry typically had two layers of stone which were then filled with smaller stones and rubble, and this type of construction is noticeably absent from Troy. The walls of Troy are curtain walls, which are solid, single-layer stone constructions. Mycenaean walls were also typically built on bedrock or virgin soil, but the builders of Troy left a layer of soil between the walls' foundations and the bedrock. This may have been a precaution to protect the city from earthquake, but ultimately failed because Troy VIh was destroyed by earthquake.14 The main construction material at Troy was mud-brick.15 The Hittites also used mud-brick in their constructions, including in their fortifications.16
However, the walls of Troy do bear some similarity to those at Mycenaean sites in some aspects. One of these is a defensive feature which can be described as a “killing box”: a gateway constructed by building two overlapping sections of wall, creating a small space in between. Since gateways are always a weak point in any fortification system, this “killing box” would put any invaders under fire from both sides as they attempted to storm the city.17 This type of feature is also found at the Mycenaean site of Tiryns.18
As mentioned previously, one important difference between the construction of Troy and that of Mycenaean sites is the lack of any kind of palatial structure. Mycenaean sites have a very distinct palace structure, centered around the megaron or throne room. This throne room had a circular fireplace at its center with four pillars around it, a throne on the right-hand side of the room, and elaborately painted walls and floors. There is no evidence of any such structure at Troy. To be fair, much of Troy was destroyed when Heinrich Schliemann conducted his demolition of the upper cities of Hisarlik. This means that evidence that may once have existed is now gone; however, it is pointless to speculate upon what might have existed at Troy when one has absolutely no evidence upon which to base that speculation.
The legend of the Trojan Horse may shed some light on Troy's relationship with the Anatolian world in a military sense. It is possible that the legend of the Trojan Horse may have originated with some sort of siege engine. The siege engines of the Assyrians usually had long shafts or drills and were operated by three men, who used the shaft to stab at the defenders and knock them off the walls. The men were protected by a kind of movable hut, and these siege engines were often named after animals. Consequently, it is conceivable that the Trojan Horse was originally a siege engine, and when this military technology became obsolete, the Greek poets improvised a story that would make sense to their audience.19 If this is the case, then the culture at Troy was significantly influenced by Anatolian culture. It is important to remember that for centuries, everything known about Troy had been filtered through a Greek lens. The evidence, however, strongly indicates that the greatest cultural influences on Troy were Anatolian, not Greek.
Trojan religion shows a strong connection to Anatolian culture. Korfmann finds several important relationships between the two cultures in the cultic and religious sphere. First, the Trojans adopted the Anatolian practice of cremating and burying their dead in large urns, called pithoi. Second, there are stelai at Troy that indicate similarity between Anatolian and Trojan religious practices. Stone and pillar cults were common in Anatolia at the time, and the presence of the stelai at Troy indicates a cultural connection.20 A third possible religious connection exists between the Greek god Apollo, who is a guardian of Troy in the Iliad, and the Anatolian god Apalunas or Apaliunas, who was worshiped among the Luwians and a god of Wilusa.21
Arguably the most important aspect of archeology, and the most ubiquitous indicator of civilization, is pottery. Where there are pots, there are people. Where there is Mycenaean pottery, there is Mycenaean civilization, or at least contact with Mycenaean civilization, and there is some Mycenaean pottery at Troy both in the citadel and the lower city.22 However, the quantity of Mycenaean pottery found at Troy VI is vastly overshadowed by the amount of Grey Minyan Ware, or Anatolian Grey Ware, found at the site.23 This and other evidence strongly suggests that while Troy has traditionally been identified with Greek culture because of Homer's treatment of it as such, its strongest ties were with the Anatolian culture. One of the most important finds at Troy was Korfmann's discovery at Hisarlik of a two-sided seal with writing on it. The language has shown to be Luwian, a language related to that of the Hittites. The seal is of a type found in many Hittite-influenced cities, which implies that Troy had contact with the Hittites, and, further, that there was at least some level of literacy in Late Bronze Age Troy.24
There is evidence in Hittite documents of a relationship between Troy and the Hittite Empire. An archaic name for Troy is “Ilios,” or “Wilios.” (It is from this name that the Homeric Iliad derives its title.) In a Hittite document from the 13th century BC now called the Millawanda Letter, King Tudhaliya IV mentions a place called “Wilusa” as a previously contested territory. Several scholars, including Machteld Mellink and Frank Starke, drew a connection between the Hittite “Wilusa” and “Wilios.”25 The content of the Millawanda Letter indicates that Wilusa/Ilios had diplomatic relations with the Hittite empire. In the letter, Tudhaliya tells an ally in Millawanda that he will install a man called Walmu as the king of of Wilusa.26 Wilusa is mentioned in several other Hittite documents, as well: for example, the Tawagalawa Letter, addressed from King Hattušili to the king of Ahhiyawa—a name accepted by most scholars to be a Hittite version of “Achaea,” Homer's name for the Greeks. In the Tawagalawa Letter, Hattušili complains about the exploits of the rogue Piyamaradu in raiding Hittite lands. Hattušili mentions that he had been “at enmity” over Wilusa with the King of Hatti, and that this dispute has been resolved.27 From this, we can infer that Wilusa—or, if we accept the linguistic connection, Troy—was actually an Anatolian city and a part of the Hittite empire. Just how important Troy was in the Hittite picture is, of course, still a point of controversy.There is evidence in Hittite documents of contact between Troy and the Hittite Empire. An archaic name for Troy is “Ilios,” or “Wilios.” (It is from this name that the Homeric Iliad derives its title.) In a Hittite document from the 13th century BC now called the Millawanda Letter, King Tudhaliya IV mentions a place called “Wilusa” as a previously contested territory. Several scholars, including Machteld Mellink and Frank Starke, drew a connection between the Hittite “Wilusa” and “Wilios.”28 The content of the Millawanda Letter indicates that Wilusa/Ilios had diplomatic relations with the Hittite empire. In the letter, Tudhaliya tells an ally in Millawanda that he will install a man called Walmu as the king of of Wilusa.29 Wilusa is mentioned in several other Hittite documents, as well: for example, the Tawagalawa Letter, addressed from King Hattušili to the king of Ahhiyawa—a name accepted by most scholars to be a Hittite version of “Achaea,” Homer's name for the Greeks. In the Tawagalawa Letter, Hattušili complains about the exploits of the rogue Piyamaradu in raiding Hittite lands. Hattušili mentions that he had been “at enmity” over Wilusa with the King of Hatti, and that this dispute has been resolved.30 From this, we can infer that Wilusa—or, if we accept the linguistic connection, Troy—was actually an Anatolian city and a part of the Hittite empire.
To summarize, the position of Troy in the Late Bronze Age was likely that of an Anatolian or Anatolian-influenced settlement. Although its importance as a center of trade has likely been exaggerated by Manfred Korfmann and others, it was an important enough territory to be the subject of several conflicts in Anatolia. Culturally, the Late Bronze Age Trojans shared much with their Anatolian neighbors. The traditional view of Troy has been shaped and filtered through the lens of the Greeks, and consequently the Greek connection to Troy has been overestimated. Because of the importance of the Homeric epics, including the Iliad, in Western culture, the significance of Troy as a center of civilization has likely also been exaggerated. Troy itself was likely a relatively minor and peripheral city in Anatolia in the Late Bronze Age, as evidenced by the small size of the site. Troy's location at the base of the Hellespont is theoretically advantageous, but it seems doubtful that Troy utilized this advantage in the Late Bronze Age; as mentioned above, there is no Mycenaean pottery north of the Hellespont in the Black Sea region, as there would be if there had been significant trade between that area and the Aegean and Anatolia.
With respect to Troy and the historicity of Homer, one must be careful to avoid falling into the trap of black-and-white thinking. While it is somewhat romantic to imagine that the Ilion of Homeric legend was a real “shining city” of great importance, that is simply not borne out by the evidence, and there is no merit in creating yet another layer of legend and attempting to pass it off as historical fact. [2923]
1 James C. Wright, “The Place of Troy among the Civilizations of the Bronze Age,” The Classical World 91, no. 5 (May – Jun. 1998): 357.
2 Nic Fields, Troy c. 1700-1250 BC (Oxford: Osprey Publishing Ltd., 2004), 25.
3 Manfred Korfmann, “Troia, an Ancient Anatolian Palatial and Trading Center: Archaeological Evidence for the Period of Troia VI/VII,” The Classical World 91, no. 5 (May – Jun. 1998): 371.
4 Ibid., 380.
5 Ibid., 382.
6 Ibid., 382, 383.
7 Hertel and Kolb's article, “Troy in Clearer Perspective”, is one of several in a back-and-forth between supporters and critics of Korfmann's work. The authors give an extensive argument against Troy's status as a palatial estate or center of trade, arguing against four of Korfmann's main arguments—pottery sherds lower down the hill of Hisarlik, a settlement wall outside the citadel wall, a defensive ditch, and the existence of houses outside the main citadel.
8 Dieter Hertel and Frank Kolb, “Troy in Clearer Perspective,” Anatolian Studies 53 (2003): 73.
9 Ibid.
10 Ibid., 74.
11 Ibid., 76.
12 A rebuttal to Hertel and Kolb's criticism has been published by Peter Jablonka and C. Brian Rose, who were both involved with Hisarlik at the time Korfmann was excavating there: Peter Jablonka and C. Brian Rose, “Late Bronze Age Troy: A Response to Frank Kolb,” American Journal of Archaeology 108 no. 4 (Oct. 2004): 615-630.
13 Fields, Troy, 23.
14 Ibid., 36.
15 Ibid., 29.
16 Konstantin S. Nossov, Hittite Fortifications c. 1650-700 BC (Oxford: Osprey Publishing Ltd., 2008), 17.
17 Ibid., 38, 44.
18 Nic Fields, Mycenaean Citadels c. 1350-1200 BC (Oxford: Osprey Publishing Ltd., 2004), 33-36.
19 Fields, Troy, 52-53.
20 Korfmann, 373-374.
21 Ibid., 376.
22 D.F. Easton et al., “Troy in Recent Perspective,” Anatolian Studies 52 (2002): 87.
23 Korfmann, 373.
24 Ibid., 379.
25 Ibid., 373.
26 The Millawanda Letter, in Carol G. Thomas and Craig Conant, The Trojan War (Norman: University of Oklahoma Press, 2007), 142-143.
27 The Tawagalawa Letter, in Carol G. Thomas and Craig Conant, The Trojan War (Norman: University of Oklahoma Press, 2007), 140-141.
28 Korfmann., 373.
29 The Millawanda Letter, in Carol G. Thomas and Craig Conant, The Trojan War (Norman: University of Oklahoma Press, 2007), 142-143.
30 The Tawagalawa Letter, in Carol G. Thomas and Craig Conant, The Trojan War (Norman: University of Oklahoma Press, 2007), 140-141.


